the killing paper....

Die is the only thing I can say.

This subject is so damn hard. I don understand a bit on chapter 1. at least chapter 2 I know a bit. And chapter 3 im better. But still how much marks I can get in just doing chapter 3 questions.

Study for so long. Stare at the notes for so long. Figuring out the notes for so long. And I still dono what am I studying. For those who don’t know, im talking bout physics. This is a subject that I know had ruined a lot of my friend’s life. Some get headache, some became emo, some just feel weird and wanted to vomit. For me it makes me emo, very stress…

Start exam only I dono what to do. I dono which question to chose. I dono how to start the paper. I was sitting down there for 5 mins thinking of what to write. I start writing and then start cancelling. Wrong then cancel, wrong then cancel again. This question dono how to do then do another question. See which one has more chance of getting higher marks then cancel the other one. My paper is full of blue pen ink. Not answer but the marks of canceling the answers.

I actually wanted to go out of the exam hall in just 1 hour plus. Since I dono how to do what for I sit inside for so long. But then in second thought, I maybe can simply crap something out and maybe just maybe I can get some marks there. So I stay until the end of the exam. So I simply crap things out. Anything I think that it should be there or maybe should be written down there just write only. Don’t care liao.

Finish exam I was so happy. Happy not because I can do but happy because i finished the paper. Im finished… looking at everybody’s faces are all sad faces, all the tense faces. All the dono how to do face. But there is still some that having the so easy face. Those are not normal IT humans. They should go take engineering. I terus cabut after the invigilator say can leave the room. Go back to hostel and saw my brother’s friend and he see my paper and say that it is the same as what they did last time and he is taking engineering. This means that our paper is engineering standard. Stupid la why is IT student taking engineering student’s paper. If it is like this then no need to have IT students just call it engineering students then can liao lo.

Im so frustrated now. Now I no mood to study for tomorrow’s paper. I need to de-stress first and then only can study HD. But HD I don really scared because it is 80 mcq and only 1 essay. It should be no problem I think I can study at night la. Now I just want to find something for me to release my stress.

Maybe after going to ixora and look for friends and take some movies so that after tomorrow’s paper I can watch. After tomorrow’s paper im going to have a movie marathon.

Now I just hope that my physic can pass. If get 50 then good liao. I just wan to pass it and I don wan to care about physics anymore. Im going to throw it into the Pacific Ocean and don wan to see it anymore.

Hope all IT students that taking physics just now will not take sup next sem. Lets hope that teacher will let all of us pass this eff-king hard paper.